Thursday, April 15, 2010

I trust...

Psalm 119:45 I trust in your word.

Lord, do I really believe what you say is truth?

Until the other day, I thought I really believed His word as truth. Then something happened to cause my faith to falter. Circumstances brought questions of "why" and "how" to my God. Worry and unbelief started to come - it brought me to a place of almost being comatose. I tried to seek words of encouragement. Nothing seemed to satisfy. Then God intervened. It was a God moment. Nothing circumstantial. Because I open mail at my job and because we get a lot of junk mail that's thrown away and because a piece of junk mail came from a ministry I opened it before I was going to throw it. There it was - a CD titled, "He'll Lift You Up". I listened. My spirit soaked in God's word that says He will deliver me, He will rescue me, I will be lifted up.

His word is truth -- as if Jesus himself is right here in person speaking to you. He led me to these words...

Psalm 18:2 The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock in whom I take refuge; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (NASB)

Psalm 113:7-9 He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap, to make them sit with princes, the princes of His people. He makes the barren woman abide in the house as a joyful mother of children. Praise the Lord! (NASB)

...I was being lifted up from the pit I had been in. That evening our women's bible study group met. More words of truth came as they each shared scriptures on His rest, His peace, His patience, and His compassion. It was as if He had orchestrated each woman's specific word study for me. I was in awe of His love - for me.

My spirit was encouraged. My faith was built up. Yes, His word is true. His promises are for me. I am His daughter, whom He delights in!

The next morning I open my devotional, Streams in the Desert (L.B. Cowman), and God had this to share...

Streams in the Desert by L.B.Cowman
The strength of our faith is in direct proportion to our level of belief that God will do exactly what He has promised. Faith has nothing to do with feelings, impressions, outward appearances, nor the probability of improbability of an event. If we try to couple these things with faith, we are no longer resting on the Word of God, because faith is not dependent on them. Faith rests on the pure Word of God alone. And when we take Him at His Word, our hearts are at peace.

Trust brings us to a place of rest, peace, patience and freedom.

Today I choose to rest in the arms of my Heavenly Daddy, to trust. My heart is at peace and my spirit free!

Do you trust, really trust God's word? If you struggle, picture Jesus himself standing/sitting right there with you as you read His word - that adds a whole new dimension to devotional time. Ask the Holy Spirit to breath life into God's word as you're reading - He will. He wants us to trust, really trust.

Be blessed - be free today!